Don’t Listen
`The voices whisper in the silent night, only covered by the wind blowing by. The poison they sow from the words they speak, the carnage they cause just using plain quiet words, haunts me evermore. Luxury they get from the actions they do, they do not deserve, the enjoyment they get from the torture and suffering, should not be happening. Remorse is not something they know the existence of, disinterested in even learning it. This is advice from the words of the victim. the masks they show are not the real them, the play they put on is simply apart of the plan for their own twisted happiness, they whisper fabrications and slander the words of others. So for the public sake, young and old, suppress the words they may say.`
Healing
Light filters softly
Brightening a once dark space
Full of tangled thoughts
Hope, optimism replacing
Darkness panic pain despair
Dreaming
I was dreaming
I knew
Because you were there
You were smiling, laughing
I hugged you
Told you how much I missed you
Then I woke up
You were gone
The happy feeling remained
Healing
My Safe Place
Summer evening
Just before dusk
Locusts buzzing
Crickets chirping
Scent of freshly cut hay
Hangs heavy in the air
Red juice stains my fingers
As I pluck the ripe berries
From among the brambles
Dropping into my bucket
The berries make a soft sound
The world has paused
As if holding its breath
Gently exhaling as the sky settles
Into the darkness of night
Numb
the numbness the disconnect don’t feel anything anymore the world feels gray so hard to get through every day not feeling not happy not sad just nothing what is wrong with me will this ever end how do I make it stop
Again
Thought the worst was behind me
But I’ve returned
To the painfully familiar path
Hands numb
Heart pounding
Thoughts racing
Can’t breath
So tired
Of traveling this path
Lost Friend
We were the best of friends. I thought we’d stay that way forever. You were always there for me and I for you. Then something happened. You started slipping away. Growing distant, you left me behind. Confused, sad, angry, and hurt, I moved on.
Twenty years pass. You reach out, wanting to meet. You act like the breach never happened. You were ready to pick up where we left off.
Not so easy for me.
I had questions. Why the fracture? You had no answers, evading my queries with vague excuses. My defenses are up.
I remain uncertain about repairing this friendship. I’m not sure I can. Anxiety and depression makes trusting people hard. How can I rely on someone who has hurt me once before?